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[09 Dec 2005|10:01pm] |
So I've decided...I'm getting rid of LiveJournal...I'm moving on...this has been a great place to vent for over a year but that time in my life has past and I need to move on...not forget what happened but learn and move into a more productive future....i'll leave the link up for a while before I full fledge delete this...thank you to the LiveJournal world...you've been kind but my time here is complete
<3 Sarah
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[08 Dec 2005|01:17am] |
 Dear Santa...
Dear Santa,
This year I've been busy!
In July I punched ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) boyhitscaragen in the arm (-10 points). Last Monday yok8otacobell and I robbed a bank (-50 points). Last Friday I committed genocide... Sorry about that, evilmar (-5000 points). In May I saved a busload of nuns in Angola (326 points). Last Tuesday on a flight to Bangladesh, I stole the emergency flight information card (-40 points).
Overall, I've been naughty (-4774 points). For Christmas I deserve a spanking!
Sincerely,
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yes, spank me santa...
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[01 Dec 2005|08:52pm] |
DON'T CHEAT- TYPE THE FIRST 20 PEOPLE YOU CAN THINK OF OFF THE TOP OF YOUR HEAD...
20 People You Can Think Of Right Off Your Head:
1.Laura
2.Kate
3.Nicole
4.Lindsay
5.Monique
6.Chris
7.Matt
8.Melissa
9.Brennan
10.Dean
11.Josh
12.Tina
13.Elizabeth
14.Danielle
15.Sarah C.
16.Mike
17.Larry
18.Dan
19.Joe
20.John
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Don't CHEAT by going back and changing the person you wrote down!!
How did you meet 13? She's my father's girlfriend's daughter
What would you do if you never met 5? Cry because i love monique
Have you ever liked 3? Nicole and I have been dating since 9th grade
Would 4 and 11 make a good couple? Linds and Josh? No way...he's not her type AT ALL
Would 1 and 7 make a lovely couple? Laura + Matt = Incest...gross
On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 10? Dean is like 10000 I love Dean
What language does 14 speak? Bastardized American English like the rest of us
Who is 8 going out with? My Brother
Is number 9 a boy or a girl? I hope he's a boy
When was the last time you talked to 18? The other day online
What is 2's favorite band? Right now i'm thinking TREOS
What is 2's fantasy? me obviously...or something screwed up because she's a nut
Would 12 and 16 make a good couple? Tina and Mike?! No..she's taken and well wouldn't date my ex.
What school does 6 go to? UMB with me
Where does 9 live? Brighton
Would you make out with 20? i'd make out with anyone who wants to...providing i'm single... ;)
Are 5 and 6 best friends? they don't even know each other
What is your history with 15? met her this year in class and she's the cutest thing in the world
Do you like 17? he's my BFFL
Whats 16's favorite color? Blue
Do you have a crush on any of the numbers? wouldn't you like to know...
Post your 20 people..
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[12 Nov 2005|01:04pm] |
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nothing seems right anymore...i almost want to delete this journal and everything it contains but i know i'd regret that..i want to start over...make something meaningful out of my rants...i'm intelligent and this piece of shit doesn't show that...i don't know..i've been MIA in the LJ world for awhile and I might keep it that way..but then again..I'll probably be back soon...keep your eyes open until then i bid you adieu
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[20 Oct 2005|02:00am] |
AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA
| Your Daddy Is Mike Tyson | 
What You Call Him: Old Man
Why You Love Him: He takes you to church |
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[10 Oct 2005|11:57pm] |
i hate what my journal has turned into
i hate what my life has turned into
pretty much i've started to hate everything...
i've had enough
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I've been really moody lately. Maybe I'm not getting enough sleep or I'm being lazy...or I have more on my plate than I know what to do with. I miss my friends. Not that I don't have friends around, but I miss the girls. I miss that comfort of knowing I have someone around all the time. School is good although it aggrevates me, work is good but its the same as school.
I've been really bored but have things to do. I just need to be motivated.
I need a hug.
I have come to realize that I push pretty much everyone out of my life all the time. I become so wrapped up in school or work or whatever to let anyone in. But in someways I don't really care because that must mean that I haven't found anyone to not push out...no?
I miss relationship life but feel so erratic right now so how can I have one? I mean I don't even know where I'm going in life anymore...I feel like I'm all over the place. But I miss having someone to call me to say goodnight or cuddle with me while I sleep. I don't want it to be forced...I hate when things are forced. I want it to feel real, natural. I like the thrill of the hunt but hate the time it takes. I tell myself I want all these things but as soon as I find something that 'could be' I'm like I don't want this...go away. ::Sigh:: But whatever. It's the mood I get into all the time. I feel like maybe my past still haunts me. Maybe I'm still afraid of trusting people. Maybe I'm still afraid that the second I fall for someone I'll get my heart ripped out. Maybe I'm afraid of being lied to again. Or maybe I'm convinced that things in life will work out and I'm looking for that to happen and doing nothing to help myself along. I'm not sure...maybe I'll never know. I need to stop now because I'm not thinking straight...I'll add more later.
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What has been going on in the ever so exciting life of Sarah??? Nothing much actually. School has been pretty typical...I have a new friend, Chris, who actually went to high school with my brother and we drive into school together get high off coffee and talk about boys and life, it's great!! No new boys in my life, I've pretty much given up on that. Most of the guys I meet are great, but not anything more than friends. I don't want to be single, but I don't want a boyfriend for the sake of having one. I've done that and even though it was a good time while it lasted I should have known that I was getting myself into something that was what people could call a 'fling'. Whatever. My time will come eventually, maybe before I'm 30...but with my luck...
I was so behind on my school work it was horrible. I was stressed and making myself sick. I eventually caught myself up and now I'm exactly where I should be, which is a good thing. I guess I just had to realize that summer ended and I need to think of my priorities. Work has been great, I actually like my job which is weird, I still wish I could be doing something that will benefit me in the future I like the environment and at least I have a good time when I'm there.
This past weekend was kinda fun. Friday night I went to Captain's (guy I work with) and we partied all night...ok well maybe not all night but it was still fun. I didn't drink becasue I had my car but watching Captain run around and dry hump people and sing "I need a hero" was friggen classic. Jeremy came with me and he got a little drunk....ok he was shitfaced. He ended up passed out on my bed and I somehow ended up asleep on the couch. It was cool though. Saturday I had to work at 1 and I got out maybe like 10:15 or so. Mike had invited me back to Tufts so I went home and ate a little, got changed and went over to Tufts. Robbie was there and it was good to see him becasue I haven't seen him since before the baby was born and I was excited to see the new dad. So we all just kinda hung around then went to a frat and drank and I saw Adam and Katie so Katie and I were walking around and talking to people and having a good time. Later into the night a fire alarm was pulled and the fire dept. and cops came...this is where it gets bad...long story short, the boys, mike included, got into a rumble with some of the guys in the frat and I tried to get mike out of there and it didn't work, I got scared and started to cry, walked away and went back to Mike's room. When everyone came back Mike and I talked about whatever and sort of worked out what happened and things were better. I ended up staying there and cried myself to sleep for some reason I don't really know because I had a little beer in me. Who knows...I'm always ridiculously emotional. The next day I took Mike to get his bike and Jay back to Everett. Came home and passed out then did homework 'til 2am. But it was a good weekend.
I've been thinking a lot. Maybe too much...and I don't know where the thoughts are coming from but I'm sure there will be a long entry REAL soon. I just needed to not include it in this one becasue it would have taken forever. I'll post more later...comment or whatever.
<333 Sarah
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[12 Sep 2005|11:53pm] |
Let's see.....Friday I worked then came home and went to bed because i had a busy day on sat.
Saturday i had my communications and literacy MTEL...it wasn't that bad but after i did cry a little to larry because i was overwhelmed. then i went to Endicott to hang out with nicole for a bit then that night linds and i went to tufts and hung out with mike and jay and adam and katie and some people it was great. we ended up staying there and then sunday i went to work forever and did some homework and then school on monday
thats it
this weekend is party time
and i miss my sisters
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[10 Sep 2005|01:22am] |
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Happy Birthday Cory!!!!
now you are officially old....
and I still rock harder.... ; )
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So i haven't updated in a long time. Well guess what I've been kinda busy. I know it's harrd to believe that i'm not constantly in front of my computer anymore but seriously i have things to do now. you know like work. hahaha. That's been it. I work a lot. And school just started. and that's about it.
oh and i sleep periodically too.
So what's happened in the past week or so. well one night after work we (as in people from work) all went to this kid's house and drank ourselves silly. Well i drank myself silly and ended up paying for it while throwing up twice and passing out. Good I know. But hey i had a good time and was invited back haha...so that's all that matters. we're doing it again soon but as jenna knows already i'm drinking water all night..hhahhaha
school started on wednesday and it's not too bed. i might regret taking 4 english courses in a row because it's a shit load of reading for one night in all my classes but it's cool. my professors are male and good looking so i might have to start affairs...haha i'm kidding even though in the movie of my life i would have an affair with all of them. hahahhahhhahhaha
my education class seems like it's going to be fun. there are a lot of older people in the class i think i may be the youngest there but that's better for me becasue i bet i get a job before all of them. muahaha.
i've been hanging around with some jerk zach lately = P haha...we have homework dates and we really sit and read and talk about shakespeare and writing papers because surprisingly enough he's just a big a dork as me. weird I KNOW.
what else. oh i bought a laptop because this computer is kinda kicking the bucket. I need to get it checked. i need ink for my printer too. damn i gotta go buy that.
ok well i'm off to get ready for work later and listen to some acoustic alanis.
sorry if this post had typos i'm sitting here with out my glasses and feel a little like mr. magoo because i can't really see.
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[31 Aug 2005|11:34am] |
HaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHa
the way people's minds work makes me laugh so friggen hard
why is everyone I know so lame? myself included so don't think I'm making fun of anyone
but seriously?
why....
HaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHaHa
So last night Larry and I went to Kelly's and I wanted rootbeer and lots of it so he asked for my food (chicken fingers and cheese fries YUMM) and then a GIANT rootbeer and we started laughing and I was like "well this is what you get for getting me pregnant" and larry forgot how to speak for a second and it was hysterical...I don't think the kid behind the counter believed us but it was still funny...hahaha then larry spent the night here because well...becasue we haven't hung out in 100 years so why not. Then I was nice and woke up early with him to drive him to work and then I passed out again and now I'm going to clean and later I'm going to cook...WooWoo...
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[26 Aug 2005|12:03pm] |
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this song is so god damn true....
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
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work has been pretty good and life has been pretty good too. spending lots of time with the girls which is always awesome. haven't really seen larry in a while but we aren't really fighting anymore so it's good.
everyone is leaving soon and i'm gonna be all alone. ok not really and i'm sort of excited to go back to school.
people have been aggrevating lately. i don't like when people judge me or anything and i really hate when people try to push their own views onto me. i do what i want when i want the only person i'll listen to is my dad. or any one in my famiy for that matter. but i really hate when people try to be better than everyone else. I also hate when people attach themselves and won't let go. girls do and guys do it and it's obnoxious. i probably do it too but i have good friends who will tell me when to lay off. other people need to start laying off.
i keep running into people from my past. not just one or two my a bunch of people from my past. i don't know if it's coincidence or i should be nervous that the world is going to end but who knows. i guess it's good to see some faces i haven't seen in awhile...it's comforting to know that they wouldn't completely ignore my existence....
i dont' know
goodbye
going to framingham tomorrow!! WOOWOO
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[23 Aug 2005|12:48am] |
I. Reply to this post with your name, because I would like to say a couple words about you.
II. I will also tell you what song(s) remind me of you when I hear it.
III. I will also tell you what celebrity/movie character/public person you remind me of, either personality-wise or looks-wise.
IV. I will also give ONE WORD that I associate with you when I think of you.
V. We all could use a boost now and then, so steal this for your journal and make someone else's day as well.
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the war between larry and myself is over....YAY.
my stomach has been bothering me lately...stress probably who knows
i have to work today then party hardy??
going to framingham this weekend WOOWOO ; )
leave comments bitches
some of the greatest lyrics ever..we've all felt like this before:
"But all I can do is close my eyes and
cross my arms and hope to die,
'cause you don't fucking listen
when I'm around.
The least you could do is take it back,
all the vicious remarks and verbal attacks
'cause I can't fucking stand it
when you're around.
No, I can't fucking stand it when you're around."
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Sigh...I don't feel well.
But I said I would update about Maine. So we drove there...Laura and I slept the whole way, I woke up right as we got into Saco. We went to the house and relaxed, took a drive to look around and went out to eat at Ken's. We stopped off at a shop on the way home to poke around but didn't get anything. Then that night Uncle Steve took Laura and me to Old Orchard Beach to check out what was going on. We all got fake tattoos and played arcades and took one of those old fashioned pictures it was really funny we had a audience haha.
The next two days were beach days which means JETSKIING!!! WOOWOO. We had a lot of fun but we saw a dead seal and a dying one which was sad. We went tubing that day too and we each almost lost our pants hahaha. Then we tanned and fell asleep and ate and relaxed and slept. We watched supersize me one night...that movie sheds new light on eating in general. We did crafts too...haha. Then monday we went to kittery to meet my aunt and uncle and we ate and then sent laura on her way and went shopping and i didn't spend too much money but i got some good stuff..yay. then we came home and here i am
i got a job. I know weird. well nicole helped...i'm hostessing at texas roadhouse..it's not too bad i forgot what it was like to work so now i'm a little tired, but i'll get over it.
larry isn't talking to me and it's making me extremely depressed. i tried calling and IMing and he won't answer me. God. I never thought I was that bad of a friend but I guess I was wrong. It just doesn't seem right because we've been through so much together...fuck he was here the night my mom died...he was there when I called crying telling him i didn't understand why i was still here and we hadn't even talked that much prior to that phone call but he said 'sarah, i love you' and everything was right again. now it's just all fucked up. it doesn't seem right. I mean we're best friends...at least I think he's my best friend. and things are just all over the place now. i mean christ he wants to move to england..what if i never talk to him again and the last thing we said to each other was me telling him i'm done trying and him telling me i'm a bitch? i can't have that...but i guess he's alright with that. *Larry if you read this, I'm sorry for being a terrible friend and I really don't know what to do anymore. You mean more to me than any one person will ever mean to me and I can't have us not talking. I miss you and I love you. I will always...don't move to England without making this right again.*
enough for today i've gotta relax before work @ 4
peace out mother effersssss
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[16 Aug 2005|01:39am] |
i'm home from maine
i'll update later
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[02 Aug 2005|09:46pm] |
GRRRRRRRRRRRRR.....
My name is Sarah and I'm GrUmPy!
hahahahaha
Happy Birthday Dan.... ( . ) ( . ) <--- BoObS hehe
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go to the website link on the top of the page and look at my new pictures..because i told you too!!! woo woo
i need a break from life and people....so i'm steering clear or IM and phone calls...i need to start sleeping more....
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